to conclude this week: good n bad..


good: finally see some light in my chem...i mean SOME...haha..the test was not done badly...


bad: 1. flunked my gp essay, physics test, and maths test.
2. darn...i missed distinction for my pipa exams by 1 mark!!!! so pek cek!!!!!
3. seen some light in some ppl..they r so hypocritic can...omg...they can be very pally with u
but deep down they dun like/ despise u...see the irony...aniwayz...ya...this is not good..ppl
can be so scary.......time to redefine who r my friends n who r not..


the dark side of humans...it's overpowering but not absolutely so. someday somehow there will be a light shone at it n it is fone...but till then..it's still dark...


mm...the above is crap..dunnoe what i m writing..but aniwayz..
well...i haf a nagging feeling tt STJ wldnt be a success tml
thanks to me.......
o wellz....
*hungry*
o wellz. today was a sleeping day..really slept n slept n slept...
lessons sleep. after sch sleep. on the bus sleep. on the car sleep. on the sofa sleep. but luckily i didnt miss the last episode of lian lian wu tan tan qin! (channel U 9pm show..) quite nice n lame la...i cld predict the story lines sia...haha...the advert was also lame la...playing yujian...sheesh....
mm..1 line i got frm the show...


"if u found the special person in ur life, all the waiting is worth it.."


this is not the exact english subtitles..but the essence is there..so sweet rite...=)


feels sad...i broke my pipa thumbnail!!!...it split into 2 k..rite in the middle....wah liew....*cries*....i had to buy 1 whole set of nails to replace 1..argh....decided to buy the metal box to put the nails inside...


time really flies..FIRST MONTH of 2005 is gonna conclude in 3 days time...tt makes it 1 mth nearer to As .omg omg omg. tt's it..i shall go prepare for tml's tuition...haha..nite nite.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........................................
can u all just SHUT UP n let me say a few words............................
i seriously dun see what's the freaking PROBLEM with studying in NTU.....
n WHAT's the FREAKING problem with STUDYING BUSINESS in university...ARGHHHHHHHHHH....
FINE...i have LOUSY results i NOE
I M A LOSER I NOE
I M NOTHING I NOE...
....BUT THIS IS ME....argh....













I DUN SEE WHAT's so WRONG WITH TAKING A DAY'S BREAK AFTER 1 WHOLE WEEK OF TEST....















so IRRITATING can...........

o..today's the 25th...1 mth since i last performed on stage for a full shicheng concert..how time flies...really mizz those days w the ppl! heex....*blues* =S...some how i m leading 2 lives...the CO life..n the sch life..ha..irony...


mmm... today..nth much...juz tt some ppl pisses me off....heloz...where is the ************** man...what rubbish...


haizz..my GP essay..flunked it as usual..haizz...blame it on myself for not reading enuff...not thinking and speaking in good english, not thinking enuff....arghh....sad sad sad...i tink i m the lowest already.....sianz...


mm...o...a piece of good news...open book test for matrices! *not like it will help* haven studied...not going to....told mr yap le.haha....o wellz...


i m so dead for my physics revision test lar! only studied 1 n 1/2 of the 3 chaps of electricity..argh...sianz...i m so so dead..sure ganna remedial liaoz....*WISH ME LUCK* =S

argh the previous entry looks rubbish-y...
today wasnt so bad....mm..felt accomplished to a certain extent...


chem test..not bad....this is like the first time i had so much time left before handing up...haha..wonder if i got the answers correctly...but nvm...at least i haf some idea of how to do....


when i reached hm....somehow or other....some intrigue power *is this how we use the word* caused me to pack up my living rm tt's cluttered with my notes/tutorials/scores/miscellaneous stuff....whooooooo.......not bad....cleaned up in 1/2 hr...then proceeded into my rm...abit here n there...eek....so much dust...so much to tell of an untidy person like me huh...haha...*oops*...then i realize..i haven do GP n study for physics test!!! argh....


otherwise....
mm...maths lecture..dear mr T was so qian bian can..wa liew..threaten here threaten there....sheesh...n he is a big time slacker in the name of independent learning lorx...when i cant even uds the main ideas there..everything tasks task tasks..argh....sick...n he finished L6 with 2 periods??? heloz???? mad mad mad....seeking help frm the seniors..haa....=p...


then later during chem prac...wah..stomach pain ah....i wld rather say mild gastric...argh....my last consumed mole of food was at 10.40 n chem prac was at 3.20..argh...ok...wat can i say....her eyes abit ta stamp 1 lorx...the guys sneaked out halfway she didnt notice....me eating she didnt notice...haha..sheesh..wat a blur queen...o wellz...wah...managed to clarify some points n mistakes in the lecture notes...AIYO....teachers pls explain urself in details can...eitherwise those who tries to uds ur notes also abit confused..*ok..i tink it's me only...since every1 else is so damn clever..*


argh...my yin zun sucked today...n today happen to be only 1 ZH....suck suck suck...so MALUATING can!! argh....*slaps myself..*...i tink is more of me la...the hu felt funny today....empty stomach+ nv lian not exactly a very nice combi..ARGH...bet sm ppl r sniggering away...haizz watever....


back to my gp n physics!!!!argh.....

mm..shall blog on Saturday…
Reached there late…mm…when I went in, there was like the erhus…with yc…then…I cld hear the GH.s…but where r the ZHs…mmm…*question mark*…didn’t ask yc cos she was busy fenning the erhus…walked into the tby rm…I thot it was GH….n wala…it’s the ZHs…omg..i cld hardly hear them la…haha can imagine the volume….n the fact is there r 3 juniors playing sia..muahahah…*shakes head..* where is the volume ppl???aiyoz.z….


mm…ok..then settled down….with waikit n shuhui fenning …they were fenning huamulan….ok….haha..the man ban….aiyoz…la until so dead la…nearly fell aslp!!! Haha….ok la…feelings man man lai..get the basics first…=)
(if the 3 of u reads my blog tt is…haha..=p..)


ok…so we continued for quite a while then pris came!!! Woohhoooo..long long time nv see her liao!!!omg…=) her hair is still as long n thin as ever….*till waist length n below le lor….* heex…..my senior zhzz…=)..ok…n the fenzu continues….


then we changed the song….chang cheng…haha…see how they die..=p…aiyozz….gals…cc happen to be so easy for ZH lorz…sheesh….ok la….not as bad as I expect…but still lots of room for improvement ppl…haha…


fenzu continued on with a lot of interruptions like shuhui need to give keys..wenjing comes in…hahaha….1 comment she made….wenrou pai fenzu (something like tt la…cant rmb the exact words but the essence is there…)..haha…sheesh…aiya…tt’s y we say shuhui can go become teacher le lor..she is so nice!!!! Hahaha….mm…no link…


ok nvm…ermz…ya…then we decided to fen jia…cos there was like 3 seniors to 3 juniors..hahha….y didn’t we tink of tt b4 ganna niao-ed by miss liaoz…sheesh…ok….ya..i got huiling…heee…tt siao siao gal la….always smile 1…mmm…I tink I nearly made her cry*1* n laugh also la….dunnoe how to say n express my thots so..abit leng chang la…but nvm…luckily there was waikit…whewwww…..haha….*2* [con’td]


*1*fenzu…haha…I still rmb I made xt cry on the first fenzu after we took over…oops…
*2*If u happen to be reading this hl…hee…paiseh la…for being strict…I m not as ci xiang as sh tt’s for sure…haha….*muahhahaaaa*..aiya…as long as u did ur best u wldnt be scolded tt’s for sure…=) cya next sat..


[cont’d] back…mm…ya…then at ard 12…we had to move out of the room cos temasek ppl taking over the co room as holding place…haiyox…y wld ppl want to use our lousy auditorium..sheesh….ok…then had fenzu at the study area..didn’t had m,uch going cos the juniors were rather scared abt the “huibao” thingy coming..haha…so the xiaoyous slacked..let waikit conduct his xingkong practice…then erm…I realized tt I was running late for tuition at 3..(time: 1.15..pm) n yx is not finished yet n he has my pencil box under captive!!! Hahaha…oops…ok..ya lor…so decided to wait for everything to be done…tt includes debrief….o..(time: 1.50pm…)


when yx ended his debriefing…I rushed off take 30 hm …met jiaqing along the way cos temasek was apparently holding their concert at our audi n he came to help! had a chat with him before rushing off...i was late rmb?...decided to alight at eunos to buy lunch….n sms-ed seah tell her I will b late n alas..she was gonna be late too! Hahaha…she having lunch with her family tt time..hahaha….ok….wat luck I had with the bus…the bus just dun want to come when I want to take it…argh….so was late for 10 mins…but heng the teacher haven come..so haha.me n mum had to rush our lunch…before the teacher come…ya lorzx…haha…he was still late..-_-….o wellz…


tuition went well….n I just hope tt my mum wld stop preaching abt certain stuff to ppl can…aiyoz…but I cant tell her str in the face ya..haizz…so ma-luating…


mmm….somehow..after tuition today…I had some light bulbs n hope for organic chem….u noe…like some enlightenment…haha…sheesh…ok…organic chem. Is not tt bad after all…o…did I mention this before…but HC chem. Notes SUCKS….quite a few missing stuff….they really expect us to read up la…argh..@!@@!#@$#$%$


nitetime….chatted with ******…saw another pov of hers. just wanna say tt u hang on there…dun let go…xyz needs ppl like u…*no pressure intended* n paiseh if I have been a lousy chatter..my personal problem..=S


mm….ok..end of sat….


Sunday..
My day started at 2pm..haha….pig…
Felt so accomplished…did the alkenes n arenas tut..haha..actually they r quite easy 1 lorz…LOL….haizz….zhen dui bu qi zi ji…ok. La….i shall finish up my arenes first…then go koon le! Nite!


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after thots..maybe my life isnt tt bad after all...hmpgh....feeling teeny weeny better after this weekend....
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o... this coming week.... mmm....TESTS-monday chem, wed physics, thurs chem spa(we can nv haf enuff of them..), shangyin, co, sch, STJ, hopefully buying mp3!!! yes...FINALLY...argh...after waiting for my dad to come back frm tianjin....2 weeks leh..wa biang...very long lorz....*prays*

mm...this week of sch....some how...it makes me feel more depressed then ever...haizz....
like what i told hr on thur...this 2 yrs of my jc life is SO screwed up....
1. wrong choice of sch
2. wrong choice of combi..
3. wrong choice of class
4. wrong choice of cca
5. wrong choice of how i used my time...
6. wrong CT(the person..)
7. wrong combi of teachers...
8. wrong combi of ppl in the class...


basically the first wrong thing i did was no.1...which led to all the other things....haizz....


some how...when this yr started...i dun tink it will be any better than last yr...haizz..i dunnoe y....
some how...i m feeling more stupid than ever...
when all the ppl ard me r getting S papers..i m still struggling with my hw...
when all the ppl have moved ahead...i m still at the same old spot where i started off in 2004....
when all the ppl, some how or other, have no time for the "past"...i m still caring n thinking abt them....
y? WHY? can anibodi tell me y....


all the hw is killing me...really...i just feel like quitting....n giving up...but i cant......in any case, wld ani1 care?
some how...clamming myself up might be some how better....i dunnoe y...


n wld HC teachers just stop assuming tt every1 is damn clever...really....dun they noe...NEVER ASSUME...


some how....the next wk just aint gonna be better....

shall blog abt sunday first...
SK was quite good actually..juz tt he read his news too quickly i suppose...aiyoz..relax boy...
haha..the turn-up rate of my batch was good...wooo....7/10...=) heex. not bad...


had the buffet lunch for CCO b4 tt...not bad...quite a nice buffet n atmosphere...but abit on the steep side...n abit the ulu...but nevertheless..the food tastes good!=) i felt like a pig then...
read abt smthing...tt makes me feel like crying ...really....haizz....it's damn sad how this whole situation is now...i dunnoe y but..haizz....seriously...who haven gone thru all this? y muz she be so so negative....i can nv uds.haiz...


o wellz...enuff of the sad part....back to j8...saw gladys at the competition too! omg....nice voice! heex. =) i sure hope she can get into the finals too.!!!=) jiayouz!


o wellz...o....after the competition, the 6 of us(me, steph, jy, lyd, sk, xz) went to makan at swensons...yumyum...i ate a cookie summit icecream!!! haha....lesson: nv eat cold cold cold ice cream at a cold cold cold place...a lesson which i nv learn..hahaha...lolz...


mmm..then we bought steph's bdae prezzie...sort of "force" de la...ahaha...but nvm....hope she likes it...*actually i didnt actually saw what she bought in the end..*oops.z..* ya...haha...


took 55 home...had a nice chat with the 3 of them...heex. it's been long since we chatted so much...=p....really miz those times back in dhs...haizz.....

argh...blogger deleted my latest entry....
o wellz...
mm..enuff of the previous depressing entry....
today..i mean friday...i only did 5 vector space qn, 4 polar qn, and physics prac frm 12-12..omg...how slow can i get rite...argh.....
another pt: my thinking speed and everything has decelerated AGAIN..haiz...i wonder y..juzt cant get my brain cells to work....WHY....help help..!


really feel like slping my life thru....really....i m just too tired of everything...


mm..going back dhs to help out fenzu tml...hope it goes wellz...


realize tt it's 1.27am on my computer alreadi..time to slp! haiz...

mm...ok...tt's so depressing..nvm....
did so much as 5 qns on vector space n 4 qns of polar n finished up physic prac frm 12-12...omg..tt's so slow....
o..another pt..my speed of doing things have decelerated AGAIN...haizz....just getting slower..n cant get the brain cells to work..i wonder y? Help!! ani1...


o wellz...going back dhs later to help out fenzu....hope it all goes wellz....realize tt it's 1.27am on my computer le..argh....wasted 1 day...sian..


read yt's blog..ahh...another 1 tt starts missing dhsco daysz...heex.. haizz.....after reading her blog..made me tear again...haizz....syf 2003....the crying day....haizz..shall not continue....


k.. end of blog's song....shall go mug le.nite!

shall blog abt the concert..not too bad...wat can one expect frm a 1 practise 11 songs concert. at least there wasnt major flops as i rmb...haizz....well..it is gone alreadi...nv coming back...haizz...i m crapping...aniway..it's the thought that counts la k....was damn tired after it...n tuesday...cos had rehearsal till quite late..n tuesday nite..omg...i overslept!!! n i woke up juz in time to turn back n see my house at the back...haiz.z....hafta alight at the next ulu ulu bus stop, cross the bridge, n wait at the freaking quiet bus stop for a 23...heng ar it was 11.30 then..still haf bus..ha...got scolded by my mum...haizz.....you shi CO de cuo....she just doesnt uds...CO is like my 2nd life la although i dun excel it in....haizz...


mm...thot alot during the 2 trips hm with seniors...decided to visit the juniors to see how bad they r for myself....ZHs...haizz....wat can i say....it's everyone's fault...my fault for not going back to fen them..their fault for not lianing enuff...the 5 day week fault...haizz...decided to hold a fenzu next wk..give them 1 week grace period...if they dun improve..it's time for drilling le (i grew up being scolded lorz...haha..cant imagine huh..shar was shocked as i see...)....with myself needing drilling first..see the irony.....


felt alot after reading sm1's blog....maybe i was in the same position as her last time n now.....wanting to do so much but nv got the chance n authority n ability to do anithing..haizz.....


mm....had a nice chat with seah today...haha..some gossips just popped up again! heex..=p...shall not elaborate it here...


mm...going down to j8 to support SK tml sia..he got into semifinals for DJ audtions! heex...tt guy sure can make it big in this area man! jiayou! haha...not b4 i makan at the cco international buffet first before going there..haha..decided to pang sey my kakees to go eat nice food...*oops* dun hum dum me ar ppl...i got reason 1..muahahahhahah.....aniwayz..if u all happen to be ard bishan j8 area tml....do pop into the open plaze level 3(i tink) of j8 n see the semifinals! quite nice lehz...got quite a few pro ppl frm what sk had said..haha...=) JIAYOUZ SK!!!! wo you yuan zhi chi ni!!!!!=)
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sometimes i really wonder..m i really that insensitive or just simple-minded...haizz....i nv knew...
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my dear grp member just reminded me of a physics test on monday..how anticlimax! n my whole day will be gone tml sia!!! haizz.....o wellz..make do with it...

Date : 12-01-2005 (Wednesday)
Time : 8:00pm
Venue : Victoria Concert Hall
Organized by: Singapore Chinese Instrumental Music Association
Jointly Organized by: Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts City Chinese Orchestra


This concert comprises of the following songs:
“Poem of Qu Yuan – Questioning of the Heavens”,
“The Yangtze River Capriccio – Struggle against the Flood”,
“The Suite of Spring”,
“Struggle against the Hurricane”,
two songs by vocalist Ms Mao Hui Ru
as well as two Hokkien songs by Ms Zhuang Hui Xuan.
The concert will be conducted solely by the music director of City Chinese Orchestra, Mr Tay Teow Kiat.


Tickets can be purchased at $50 or $100.
In addition, one ticket would be provided for each donation of more than $100.
We wish to gain your full support for this fund-raising concert.


Tickets can be bought at the following places:
Shangyin Music School Tel: 67429359
Blk 844 Sims Avenue #01-714 Singapore 400844


OR


Karl Heng EnterpriseTel: 63391787231
Bain Street #02-95 Bras Basah Complex Singapore 180231


The funds raised will be forwarded to the Singapore Red Cross Society for re-forwarding towards the relief efforts. Together with your support and financial aid, we thank you for helping us make this fund-raising event a priceless gift for the victims…


for more details please visit the City Chinese Orchestra website thank you!=)

omg..1 wk of sch has passed...haha...


mm...i wld say, the senior-meet-junior was rather screwed up in the sense tt seniors talk more than the juniors? haloz...where is the balance....n the guys r damn ant-social aka lazy aka childish...haizz....guys r still boys..n i mean in the childish sense..BOYS....


mm..stayed for campfire...after lessons, went to change in dhs pe attire..n short skirts! muahahah.......its damn short..all thanks to huiru...argh...but i liked it!=p....


campfire was rather down as the rain came midway n every1 had to evacuate to the hall...went ard with wendy n nico..


sang the usual HC songs...so nice la!=) HC-spirit will always be there..


then qiong to KAP for supper with the juniors...haha...not bad la...but then...where is the interaction? haloz...'04 ppl juz sat at 1 side....'05 ppl another...some ppl went ard interacting of course...good sign...but then..haiz.z.another failure...nvm..met a ex-dhs senior...cool...haha...he's damn funny la...n very funny is ah..he lives in yishun but studied in DHS??? haloz...haha..mad guy..nice meeting him...


left at ard 11.30...with the grand seniors n juniors..my class ppl stayed behind...shared a cab with sijia...nice gal!..chatted with her thru out the whole journey back home..=) n she lives in kembagan..so east! heexx...hard to find ppl living in the east studyin in hc la....


was damn tired when i reached hm...haha...but nvm...i wldnt forget this nite!=)

wow...wow...wow...what a day to start sch.


rain...then mass assembly at the TCHS grounds. mm..not bad...just tt 33 stand rite infront......


then had mass singing session for TCHS sch song...melody not bad...but then.........i dun bother to learn. no way. i will be betraying my own sec sch by singing it. HMPGH.


then had CT...she was the one who said 9.20 at the room 1 lor....then she diao us for nth?? LOL...mad woman...o wellz...another thing. "elected" as the assistant class rep. DIAOZ....


mm..then slacked..went tchs eat...then came back..stone..then had a short short maths tut..then break again...SIAN....double period some more. mmm..read L3 notes..


mm...then wat...o...physics...tutor...mr tang not bad ah....haha...then GP...wah she is damn nice! but i wonder how fierce she wld be when she is really angry...nv try such teachers sia...haha..u nv know their powers from their normal day behaviour..haha....


o wellz...at least ching was nice...or rather i shld say slack...cos she pushed our 3 periods lab to 2 periods tml morning cos lecture cancelled.. BUT then...we will be having 3 periods of tut? WAHHAHA...die la...sure ganna diao-ed 1..hmpgh....


ended the day nice n sweet. went home, bought old changkee along the way n pigged out..haha...bus was so empty n came fast..reached hm ard 4.30...watched TV, slept...dinner..n mugged L3 till now..mm..i m doing it at the rate of 1 qn 1 hr? tt's mad...with the Tv on of course...but tt's mad....isnt it?


o wellz..met quite a few juniors today! =) sharon, kaiying, yingying, michelle...haha..not bad...but then this yr DHS pop is so damn small ..20+ only..my batch was 79!=) haha.. o wellz....o...apparently not many guys sia...muahahhaha...eh..not bad lehz...hq's eye candy said hi to me...muahhahahaahah....jealous like hell ah she...


thank you weilin n diana for the earrings n bracelet!=) so nice!=)


aniway..it really gets me down whenever the teacher starts REMINDING us abt the SHORT SHORT JC life of a YR 2...ok.rephrase..short short C life of a YR 6...haha...watever...i really wonder how i m gonna survive As...argh....big hurdle definitely! try as i might, i will give my best!=)


my new yr resolution: 1 TUT a day...no PROCRASTINATION...MUG ALL THE WAY!=)

hey happy new year to everyone out there! it is a new year! best wishes to everyone out there!=)


mm...just came back frm exhibition board comm cum new year dinner with seniors @ fish n co...yum yum...seafood platter for 2...thou i wld have preferred teriyaki salmon heez...


hope jq will be happy n surprised when he sees his prezzie frm us...muahaahaaaaahahah......