oh my. the gals team got into SFs! =)
up against bigger names. but we will fight on.
today's race was satisfying. nearly cried after i finished. wooooooo.
and we did it with 9 rowers! with full 10 tml. i m sure we can do better ;)
jiayou gals. make it into the Finals and that's it ;)

冷静的，镇定的，划出每一浆，结局成败有我们缔造。。。
o yes, the big day is here! whoohooo.
excited as i am, i feel i am more prepared for this race(compared to MR 500). same sentiments as my captain! =D
have training fcuking hard for this season, this race better be a good one, with significant results =) praying hard praying hard.
1st race at 10.20am (mixed)
tertiary womens at 3.10pm. (and i got 2 gals sick! wtf. this cannot be happening..)
ok. positive mental positive mental.
i will definitely row all out. like there's nv going to be another race again. ;)
and all the gals to row as one, and to give in their best.

jiayou jiayou jiayou!
we are there to make history ;)

today, was having lunch with my senior on the engagement. and she met her ex-ntu friends/teammates.
what struck me during this session.
the similarity in feelings.

the spirit of winning, the strong support of alumni towards the same cause. in terms of dragonboating here. and back to my sec sch days - chinese orchestra.

the conversation went
"hey, u going to watch sdbf next weekend?"
"ya, y not? go down and support!"
"i will go dig out my ntu spirit red shirt and join the red crowd"

they are going down to support the PM cup. the highlight of the sdbf. the cup tt every year ntu and nus fight neck to neck for it. would there be chances that this year it would be smu neck to neck with them? i really hope so!!!
jiayou jiayou jiayou!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=D

keep the fighting spirit up, and you will be gaining the winning spirit.

oh my. this org comm is totally not making it happen. screwed up.
when programs lag/delay, logs delay even more! f***

hee. just a passing comment, but i think my assistant coach is cute=p. and quite good looking actually. hahahahh..

the happy things..
1. Team SMU A won 1st in the open mens cat for jurong lake! woohoo~ congrats to them.
on the downside, even thou team B got last. but, it ignited everyone's fighting spirit for June race, which i guess, is the brighter lesson learnt out of losing :) good one guys!

2. My counsin Ivy got married today! at marina mandarin :) really really happy for her! heehee. nice taking photos with the relatives here and there.. but there were some cute hiccups along the way. nevertheless, it's a memorable wedding after all :)

3. it's ms ng jieying's 21st bdae! haha.. happy 21st! =D

4. seah's bdae was long past. 3rd june. but nevertheless, i shall wish u a belated one on my blog! happy belated bdae seah! =)

5. i m finally on an engagement for my internship! following out with the manager to bukit batok tml! ok.. the distance is abittt far. but i hope i learn alot there! =D (now rushing my project research and send to my fren! :S frekaing 1.49am in the morning. i shld be sleeping! :S)

the not-so-happy things..
6. 2 weeks to june race. i m quite scared. how? and freaking ppl are not coming for training. wth.
had only 6 gals for traininggg. walaoeh. *change to positive tone* -> we are training hard to pul the weight of others who did not come.!!!!!

7. i think.. it's time to let go of the past. and move on.. nth comes out of it. enough said. ahh. i will prob stay single for the rest of my life -_-

8. mmm... sports camp is super hectic now. and ppl are not cooperating. how how how?!

9. ok. many ppl reflected to me tt i snap back at them recently(and by coincidence, it's all guys..).. mmmmm... sorry if i offended any of u guys unwittedly...

10. i feel so bad that i m always asking ppl to do their job. :S but the hard part is tt i cant stand it when no ones does anything when the issue is quite obvious. like.. it's right infront of them.. and they still dunnoe how to take action. or maybe it's just pure blur-ness,unconscious, or dunnoe.. ahhhhhh. and going beyond my jurisdiction might end up letting me be hated -_- wth. hard to balanceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

the i-m-not-so-sure things..
11. ok. big qn of the day.. should i celebrate my 21st bdae?! mmmmmm....(ok la. i m lazy. esp when i will only be in spore like 1.5weeks before my actual bdae.. cos going penang for race..haha..wonder If if if anybody is kind enuff to help me organize?! *wishful thinking*)

12. can i be a good coxswain? haha. though laoshi has confidence to train me up, but, i dunoe. a coxswain job is super hard to handle. it's not easy ok. as many ppl sees it. and major issue our team has.. come aug.. all our trained coxswain are either 1. going for exchage, 2. graduating, 3. leaving the team! oh my........ !!

lesson of the day:
to be pro-active, but not reactive.

after the incident on sunday with one of my exco members, it got me thinking.
maybe i shld have just taken things lighter. not so seriously. and not REACT to anything immediately. basically. just quietened down. and not react immediately.

it's crazy the things tt i do/say sometimes. but i do noe tt. just tt when things get into ur head, ur head starts going out of control.
trying my best. but am still trying.
a v thin balance with being overly quiet, and too reactive. two extreme ends. shit.

*i really think crying helps to release stress/ tt'w wat i doing now as i typed this entry...*