haha.
i m finally done with my intro econs.
hope it goes well.
no more writing for intro econs. yes!
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just ended a surprise phone call with this long lost friend of mine, alvin, frm the science camp in sec 3.. tt's like... 5 yrs ago, the last time i saw him was in jc i think. haha. damn funny. and we chatted for like 1/2 hr. haha. cld have talked more if not for me cutting the line to do my report=p.
apparently he's going to nus fos. (seah take note.lolzz.) haha. then he was complaining to me abt smu.-_- haha,, but it's quite fun to chat with long lost friends, if we ever were.=p.
and at the same time, coincidentally, i was chatting with another alvin in smu. haha.. why is alvin such a common name? mmm...
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the song from music and lyrics has a catchy tune! =p. shall listen to it again after exams. not now, like now, some1 keep looping and blasting the song. hmpgh. and chat with me online when we are just a table distance across each other. lolzzzz. ;p
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and i m blogging in sch. goodness. i shld be doing my bgs report already. o/w kexin will kill me. hahhahahahahah.
till my next entry.
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in my lala land. with my laptop.
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[after post]
"Way Back Into Love"


I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on


I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need `em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind


All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Ohhhhh


I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere


I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions


All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end


There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation


All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I’ll be there for you in the end


yesh, tml is 29th MARCH.
my LONG AWAITED.
PHANTOM OF THE OPERA!!!!! =D

u noe,
INTRO ECONS SUCKS! BIG TIME
it's driving me nuts.
my grp mate as well. literally.
i just want to get my part done and over with.
pls give me the brain juice and power to produce what i want by tonite.
ARGH.


just had my AS debate today.
well, everyone was just reading frm their script la huh.
qna was like shit again for me.
sure marked down one.
haizzzz.
then stayed back in sch to study in the db room. ganna suan by my friends haha.
hmm.. not much help cos some1 keep talking to me. hmpgh.
and my stats for correlation is kind of gone for tml's class test.
i dunnoe what the text bk is talking abt leh.
seems DAMN foreign to me laa.
all th SEE, SSE whatever shit.
why make life so complicated?
argh.
ya lor. how.
stats is my only hope for a 4.0. for an A or A+. save me!!!!!

you may pursue it but you may not get it, as such is happiness...
frm "the pursuit of happiness"
well, how true. and reflective of reality. haiz
my thots now:
性格太像的人只能够做(好)朋友，而不是情侣。
i just told a lie last nite, cos i dun want u to noe.


tt aside,
yea, collected my POTO = phantom of the opera tickets today! yeaaaa. watching on next thur! yup. one happy thing coming along.
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2nd happy thing, my aunt visited today and commented that i look much darker and skinner esp on the face area! yesh.. 减肥有效！！！ haha.
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3rd happy thing. i checked out the SDBA website today, and june race is on 30th june and 1st july, WHICH MEANS, i can join the race! yes yes. no worries of clashing. just tt i need to keep exercising and maintain my fitness when i m overseas! hahaha.
and i hope someone can join. haha.
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heee. stayed back in sch yesterday for meeting, and work. which prove very efficient. reached home at like 11+.along the way saw familar faces like anik (my ltb mate), fadzry frm my sports camp and boon kian! apparently celebrating his friend's bdae on SMU campus. diaoz. -_-' not exactly my ideal place to celebrate huh. hur hur.
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looping 专属天使，逆光，我怀念的 many times. =) nice songssss. =D.
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FOCUS. and finish up AS debate by tonite. jiayouz to me and someone and everyone else. hahahaa. *slaps myself*
[post after]
oyesh, i luv the necklace tt som helped me buy from thailand! hee. but the sad thing is, half the furry ball of the 2nd layer came out! =( cant even glue it back la. think i will go replace it with something after my exams.
SEE, everything is AFTER exams k. not now. haha..
cant wait for the bloody exams to be over. argh.
i need to rush my last report out now. intro econs. screw it.
loving it.
not my life. but the ppl ard me.
haha.
doesnt make sense. bish.

YANZI's 10th album is out today! go get it!
this few days has been smooth sailing.
but sure lacking of sleep. -_-
hee.
and have been looping Tank's 专属天使。 for the 6/7 time already. so nice can! haha
(damn,i think ms seah is laughing her heads off le *bleah* )
hee. i m waiting for a chance to have a good night sleep. to have a sweet dream
hee.
doink.
我又在发花痴了，howz??
need to concentrate on my work for the last 3 weeks first.
hee. 11april!! counting down.
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the lyrics for 专属天使 =)

我不会怪你对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良
怎能让你为了我被碰伤

小小的手掌厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想透过你的眼光
我才看见它原来在前方

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

小小的手掌大大的力量
我一定也会像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方就是我的方向
有我保护笑容尽管灿烂

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为生命只有黑夜

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
looping for the 10th time =)

haiz.
back frm sunday'sMR500.
we were 3rd in the rapid charge.
so didnt have a channce to move to the 2nd round
but we tried our best, 拼命划了，所以也不会太难过。下一次会跟好！next round, bedok reservoir, MY home ground. haha.
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had lunch with the team at KFC -_-
tt organizer damn good lor. pang seh me. then say i m supposed to organize -_-. bleah.
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i really dunnoe what u mean. stop giving me hope.
maybe it's just my wishful thinking. mmmm...
back to twc essay, due tml! =p.

today started quite right, with seah spotting me at the interchange! haha. damn funny la u!
TOWN is a nice place to do proj k. i do projs there everyday! WHAAHHAAHAH.LOLZz!
then went to lower seletar reservoir, had warm up, and my knee hurt againn. everytime after run my knee hurts? howzz? damn scareddd.
then it was the mixed boat at 1pm.
we ended 4th among 5 teams. haiz. but nvmz, there's still the heats tml, aka rapid charge. hope we make it to the semis and hopefully into the finals! tt will mean 3 races! but who cares! it is easier to row in a reservoir!!!! really must pull hard this time everyone!
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then it was the gals boat.
kinda of sad.
i think we ended up last.
but it's alright.
treat it as a lesson.
we know we can do much better during the june race! (at the BEDOK reservoir!!)
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then it was the guys boat.
thot we had a hope of getting something.
but somehow, the charging part, we lost it to 3 teams at a go.
the charging was damn freaking scary.
really made a diffference.
argh.
and we had to end up last.
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i guess it's a big disappointment to everyone. today.
let's make tml a better race!
pull harder!
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tt aside, saw fiona frm my hc senior class ! she is rowing for nus canoe! hee. then brought her to find wenxiang and left them talking.
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feeling shack.
but i noe i need to do work.
and concentrate on it.
and not get too distracted by someone! heehehehehehhehe. =p *beams*

haha..
my intro econs grp is so screwed.
i mean in the 3+1, the one. haha. =p. the 3 is fine and funny!
but hope it turns well la.
it's still our proj.
[added]
omg. i just read abt my horoscope on friendster for today! it's damn accurate. nail on the head kind!

The Bottom Line
Someone with a huge ego will take a fall today -- enjoy this lesson about humility.
In Detail
Someone you know who has a huge ego is going to get knocked down a peg or two today -- and you are going to find the spectacle exceedingly entertaining. But seeing another person humbled should not make you gloat. You can be proud of being a bit wiser than certain people -- but if you get too cocky about it, you're sure to end up making a fool of yourself, too! Humility makes wise people like you seem even wiser.
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i m not making sense i noe.
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aniways..
something which i hope it's not deja vu again. but i m not telling u (seah) what izzit yet! hahah.
wait until i confirm laaa=p. heeez
[shld i go for smu sports bash? heeheehee...DISTRACTION NO 1]
SEAH: u must also jiayouz k! dun give up! the finishing line is coming soon!
see i so nice, dedicate a line to u! =p
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o goodness,
tml is the competition!
the big day!
so scared!
everyone must chiong!
fight till the end!!!! =)
FOCUS!
this really reminds me of syf 2003 with dhsco.. hee..
i guess the focus part really applies across all sectors/industries/whatever things u do.
focus on when u r doing it. u may find urself in a better position when u finish doing it!
which i hope happens tml!
胜利就在不远处！
SMU SAK!
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one more distraction! DISTRACTION NO 2
ERIC TAN: lend me ur prada dvd can? plsplspls..!
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DISTRACTION NO 3.
mr chicken (aka ws) keep asking me to go club after my exams.. shld i go? heee
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hee. wellz, time to work on my TWC essay! jiayouz everyone! =)

well,
the employment survey of SMU is out.
pretty good news overall. higher pay and all sorts
but it just occurred to me that, they released it NOW for a good reason.
POSSIBLY as a form of marketing instrument to the freshies who are applying to enter uni NOW. [like, "join smooo.. u can get a potentially higher starting pay.." prob rings a better bell to the parents than the freshies applying, but parents do have a big influence on the children's decisions. haha. ]
brilliant marketing strategy, which smooo is capable of. haha.
(the above was not meant to offend anyone, just my personal thought)
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Would i be in class of 2009? or 2010? omg.. it's like 6 or 5 more sems for me.. mmmmm..
sianz. [it equals to 5 or 6 more rounds of hectic schedules. o man]
and they have to put the sch of LAW tog with sch of ACCT. how big/small is sch of acct already.. squeeze some more! piang...
and i really wonder, how can some ppl find so many qns to ask? haizz.
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well, life is as hectic as ever. i cant wait for hols to come. my 4 mths break. let me emphasize [FOUR MONTHS!] to do the things i want to do, to start mugging for next sem stuff[yes mugging] to keep up with my fellow competitive sch mates. to keep up with my fitness, to read up more and expose myself to more things in life, or in the world. to watch my fav shows online.... haha.. go PLAY! club! play tennis! big makan sutra, go binge, go explore the night life in spore.. stop seeing a particular someone online..pack my room.. haha..
lots and lots of things to do!
argh. i cant wait for my life to come.
come life!
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o no, did Spore just lost her 1st placing in airport rankings?
tt's sounds like an emergency bell for the airport management..
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i shld get back to my intro econs report. argh. one obstacle/wave after another, it just nv stop coming. wells, tt SMOOO for u.
and i screwed up my TWC presentation. as usual, i cant ans alot durin the QnA session. WTf. as usual, my grp mates answers all the qns shot.
seriously i think it's abt being thicker skin and kiaping all chances tt come along the way. if u dun strive, no one will care for u. this is how bad the society and workplace is.

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as for my CT class today,
one line or rather wisdom from my prof. quoting from some famous person i guess. haha.
When we wake up in the morning from the alarm clock ringing, we put down the clock.
[and something else]
when one grasp the meaning of the words, we put down the words.
WHAT IF,
when one got something he/she needs out of you, this some one puts u down.
how wld u feel? [this is the feeling tt i always get around most of my friends.haiz.]
like the saying goes.
无事不登三宝殿
how true.
haha.
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crappy entry.
i shdl stop
ppl, go buy 逆光 by yanzi! coming out on 22nd mar. =)
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只能学会独立，因为孤军作战者。

SERIOUSLY, i do not UNDERSTAND how come arguing can be connected to being rude.
I mean, i was stating my point, u were stating yours. is tt called being RUDE?
WTH.
it's all because of ur authocratic ways, MCP ways that i grew up in an environment which is to listen and not talk back. which is killing me now. in smu. cos i cant argue fast enuff.
WTH.
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Sorry for the above post.
just letting out my frustrations at home. ARGH.
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well, at least 1 good thing happened to me today.
i could run long distance without stopping at all! yeaaa. improvement
and i, hopefully, is rowing RIGHT for the upcoming db competition! my rowing partner karene! hee.
TEAM SMU SAK! competition counting down. 6 days. lower seletar reservoir! 17/18th march. =p
o, and i saw wenxiang frm hc 03s33 today! he's rowing for PA dragonboat la! goodness. and he's going smu... can ask him to join smu db? lolzz..
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And CAN STOP ASKING ME TO BUY DINNER? i only got tt small pair of hands to carry 5 bags of things home? like wth. and u r not being helpful and kind! ARGGHHHHH
enuff said.
dads' can be so MCP at times. and forever expecting me to answer his irritating questions, which he can ask like thousands of times. mm.. sign of caring/communication? maybe. but then, this wld prob not be the ideal way. hmpgh.
i m nv getting such BF-kind k. if my future bf is like tt, dun tell me abt it. haha. if my husband were to be like tt, i will die bursting sooner/later OR i will divorce him. no more. (maybe too early to say. haha..) BUT u get what i mean.
ok. the above entry is abit tainted with vulgarities. so sorry if it had been an eyesore to readers =)
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o wells,
twc presentation next week. -_- having jitters abt it.
then i need to rush out my intro econs project by wednesday, and read for twc class on monday and DO my AS worksheet!
EXAMS is drawing so near, i dunnoe what to do!
i got like 2 bloody presentations in WEEK 14! mind you, tt's my STUDY WEEK! wth.
and my stats mid terms was CHUI. all thanks to my MCQ! 1 qn 4 marks! biangggggg. can concentrate more on the doing part???!?!??!?! argh.


now i m scared my june db race (which is going to be held in BEDOK RESERVOIR!) wll clash with cco trip?? how howz????) omggg.. let the organizing committee do some good and make it before 8th june. =) then i can join! haha.. *think too far*


need to buck up on my class participation for BGS and TWC! cannot DUN talk! must train the face to be thicker, think faster, be more critical of things around oneself, and criticise debate on them. !!!!! yesh. my aim for the next few weeks.
my logic: since i dun have much friends in sch, i dun mind throwing face saying nonsensical things or stupid comments to gain points. the means justifies the end. haha. i m not making sense! nvmz. just be thicker skin and talk!


to all the incoming freshies this year, if u can talk alot, crap alot, enjoys wayang-ing, speaks pretty good english, intelligent, happening, then u ____ to smu. if not, dun. it's hard to survive. my heartfelt words.(hope smu doesnt sue me for this. lolz. it's after all, my blog.) fill in the blank urself. lolzz.


time to get back to work. enuff of rantings. feeeling much better now.
another round of db training tml! last one! Team SMU SAK!