no good no good.
it sucks to be hearing shocking stories about ur team mates. (especially after my heart worked hard today during training. 38beats/10sec -_-)
but ok la.
i guess every guy have their own needs la hur.
haha.
concluded that no matter how nice a guy maybe, there's always sometimes when they use their lower half to think. lol. letting the heart rule the actions. well. i think it works like these for the females too hurhur~ LOL.

and i still heart talkcock sessions nonetheless. haha. tt's how i get all the information for my own database. HAHAHAH.

aye.
and i think i have said this before.
i dont think i make good gf material. i seriously dont.
so.. haha. fat hopes abt getting attached la. lol.

training is really picking up.
5 times a week this week..
6 times a week next week..
and maybe even 7.
but i really am enjoying myself. to work hard for tt place in the boat.
especially when the left side has 10 full rowers. and choosing 5.
i hope i will be the 5 this time round. and win a medal. whatever colour it may be.
-sigh-

dunno what has got into me this days.
but i am feeling pretty emo like now.

random thots
why is it that ppl only appreciates something when it is gone. and not when it is there.
am i even receiving the right interpretation that one is actually feeling sad that one lost something that was given to him by someone else.;p
but i guess i am just thinking too much :p

let this not be dejavu for me again nor just a feeling from circumstances. let it not be so.
alamak. it's too early to say la, just let things go its natural way :D

quoting chaota.
"appreciate singlehood"
haha. i am i am ;p
but maybe it will be a much stronger/certain feeling when i got out of a r/s.
at least there was something to compare with mah, no? haha.
thinking too much le.


in the meanwhile. train hard. eat smart. sleep like a pig :)

"
eat.sleep.train. db
eat.shop.see. hk
"

:)
back from the camp.
made more friends.. had lots of sufferings during training..had lots of fun at ktv :)
me n chaota both wished tt we cld just have training camp all day long :)

EAT SLEEP TRAIN<- the camp shirt motto ;p
my motto for this summer too. decided not to look for a job... just want to conc on training.

right before the camp, i went to butterfactory w seah n her nus chem gang. haha i m damn louay now.. drank one cup of ORANGE VODKA n i feel giddy alr. wtf! my tolerance level has droppped.......-_-

tsk. ya but i did enjoyed myself. let loose and all :)
then back home at 3am.
and it was reporting time at 11am! SHAGGGG.i cld still feel the alc in me ;p

training..
day1:
canoeing + land trianing of burpees/push up/star jump + 400m sprints ard the track! woohoo. after tt i cldnt feel my legs. -_-

day2:
10 stations of circuits at the sports hall with wilson and ronald. haha. shagg-fied.
3 setssssss! -_- my quarts is lik whatttt
then it was shower.. and set off to marina sq for KTV! woohoo~ started off w me and chaota.. then choon kai came.. then boonx came.. then da T came along! it was fun fun fun~
choon kai's rap is like woahhhh...zai! imagine energy's la mei or la mian.. tt song.. he cld rap with and without the lyrics! it is like WOAHHHH~~~~~~~~ zai!
chaota/boonx also had their chinese mambo of zhang zheng yue's famous song..(which i cant rmb the title.. haa)
all on facebook :)
then it was back to sch for kickboxing! agonizing. and when the instructor made us do the squat stretch the whole room was like.. AHHHHHHHHHHHH. whining in pain. in fact whining is an understatement. aha.
the amt of heat we produced was enuff to create condensation on the glass panels in the room. aha. imagine how hot we were. LOL!

day 3:
long sea training.
first was girls..
second was the mixed trainings.
ironically. i enjoyed the mixed trainings better. more motivated to row though. and it was more shiok when my team qie the other boat but so much more! 7/7 for the second set of pyramid. is like.. woahhhhhh :) glad we pushed hard.
then it was back to sch, shower, lunch, sleep. then the psychology talk by an ex-db-er. quite interesting though. but me and ctl both thot that he was paid too much. haha.
then before the team talks, me and ctl went to buy coffee bean drink to reward ourselves :)
then it was the team talks. wells. glad we ironed some things out. but i still felt t t there were qt abit of other issues outstanding not ironed out.
but personally.. i really want to row PM cup.
lik. even if we are gonna lose. (but come on, we shldnt start out like tt) at least smu girls went down to row with pride. and we did put it out best, and respect our competitors by giving them a good hard fight out there. i am sure we will be proud of ourselves in the end. no matter the results.
besides, fighting hard in the tertiary and mixed catergory has more chances la. seriously. with 3 versus 1 medal to fight for. yup.

day4:
single sea training again.
the girls have to build up more i guess. our fitness is really not tt yet.
but with 36 more trainings.. i am sure we can do much more :)

then it was breakcamp time!
something i liked from chian's closing speech.
"
in db, we earn 4 Fs.
Friends
Fitness
Figure
Fun
"

well. i totally agree. and his other point abt db is a sport tt is so unpredictable. u wouldnt know the result until u cross the finishing line, be it tt u win by merit, or u win by luck cos ur opponents screw up during the race. u really dont noe how the result will be until one crosses the finishing line.
that's probably why everyone is looking for the perfect set. the fastest timing. the most efficient stroke. to make it perfect. to cross the finishing line first. to get the feeling.

Am I ready to go?
I AM :)

on a side note:
I really am going to miss chaota lim! omg.
we are like the best of buds during the camp. haha. :D
my sleeping partner
my shower partner
my bus partner
my coffee bean partner
my lunch/dinner partner
my KTV parnter
my talk cock partner
HEEE.
let's jiayou together for our last race in SMU together! =)

this morning on my way to training..
i think i saw a dunmanian.
if i never see wrongly..
they changed their uniform????
it looks ugly now.
gone are the metal buttons. and the school batch is on the collar -_-
i miss the metal buttons! they make the uniform look so smart :)

haha. and yes. i m finally going clubbing tml. lol.

i will train and go back to ZZZ. then club. then ZZZ until 11am report for db training camp! oh my. :S

hope the camp goes well.. hope i have fun grp mates.. and a good canoe partner! hahahaha. at least give me some1 who talks more than me or at least can click. haha. LOL!
:)

as i was on my way home one day..
there was this conversation between this lady and guy..
i actually found it quite interesting.
lik. cos this guy is a designer graduate. and he actually said tt he loves to explore other cultures and infuse them into his designs.. and he also talked abt his perspective to life.. abt being inquisitive about almost everyday, redefining norms etc.
and i start to wonder.. did i ever have this learning attitude of redefining norms. or it was just a take and digest kind of learner? -sigh-

life is boring for me.
really tempted to go sign up for a make up course. lik. how cool is tt. haha. but no $$$. :(
i m lik trying to min my spending for shopping in spore. haha. must save up for my exchange! wooot~

but at least db is going strong. at least i think so.
and my strokes are improving with every training. like i can feel and catch the water better. and i can feel my strokes. the FEELINGGG is good :)
and i see my 20 crew for PM cup forming! yeaahhhhh~~~~
我想，用感觉去做一件事情这办法都是通用于每一种活动吧！因为它是要攀上另一个层次的必要条件。 :)

sigh. just received an sms from wangui. asking me to perform in KL! 4D3N trip i think in AUG during the NDP period. and it's all paid for! how cool. haha. tempted.. but i think i will be super shag. haha.

this is just a random post :)

李玖哲 <<想太多>>

你笑着说他是朋友
但你眼中太温柔
我的不安那么沉重
只有你不懂

他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我

是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我

是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

我想我没有错怪了什么
虽然你不说都是错在我
太晚我才懂爱了你太多

是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

JJ's voice is like so nice on bai wan da ge xing :)
i want to sing KTVVVVVVVVVV :(

i m really really bored.
like. nojobnoworknoschool
only training to keep the day going.
this is probably the first summer where i have nothing to do. compared to my 1st summer where i was busy with FTB, and 2nd summer internship + sports camp logs.
my 3rd summer? noluckatinternship.nojob.
just training which starts at 7am in the morning?? so my whole day starts damn early. there's nothing to feel in the long day ahead. i dont need a long day ahead! :(

what i have been doing so far.
1. training
2. watch TV
3. play facebook games the whole day. (i m tempted to like buy a full game of like.. diner's dash etc. and play, but my computer speed isnt tt splendid.)
4. SLEEP
5. playing with make up on my face. haha. actually, it's just the eyeliner practice la.i m kinda of addicted to it ;p

what a pig's life.
i probably should like start mugging my remaining acctgs mods for next year sem 2. haha. i have 365 days to study for 3 mods ;p
too much time piling up on my hands.

SEAH! quickly finish exams then we can go out ya. :( :(

mmm.. things tt have been piling up
1. my old clothes to be washed
2. my messy room to be packed (ok ok. i shall pack tml)
3. 2 emails to send to my profs
4. update my resume and send to my counsellor.
5. RUN RUN RUN!
6. ok. maybe i should go read angels and demons :)

haha. sigh.
cant wait for SEPTEMBER TO COME. where i will be on exchange to HK! woohooo~~~~~
totally excited abt it. although the stupid swine flu has just attacked hk, and actually the whole wide world actually. alamak. goaway plssssss :(

and now.. i m waiting for the repeat telecast of star awards 2009. hahaha.
tsktsk.