been rather busy even after SYF ... wat the..the homework just piles up exponentially, with a normal distribution..BLAHBLAH BLAH..tt's STATS..argh....
this sucks...some how, i tink i will fail my As? this just sucks....
the week starts with a long day....going easier towards wednesday...n is harder to end on fridays...in terms of tutorial periods and the number og tutorial...this just suck
some ppl have just unknowing hurt me some way or another...
i m never a smart person..i m just plain stupid...maybe it's just tt i dun use my brains at all...
i m never a highflier... i m insignificant...
i m leading life as it comes...tutorial after tutorial...
yes, some ppl might say tt as a student, life is not abt results...but come on, face it... it IS..no results, no priority in watever courses, scholarship, jobs etc etc etc...the effects always set in, no matter wat..tt's reality in spore...
besides i m a mediocre student..i m...i nv ever use my brains...i am a stick-in-the-mud....i dun deny tt..i hate changes definitely...some pt of time in my life changed my sense of direction in life..some how or another...they might not noe but it did...
as i m typing this..i m crying..no joke...maybe crying is the only way to destress myself. this just suck.
friends come and go....ppl change...tt i can uds..but wat if friends nv last? wat if they just fade away suddenly? i tink i will just die...not like i haf many friends in the first place though. just hate this feeling of being seen as a guai person..i M NOT! nobody uds me at all..neither do i to myself. this is so ironic...do u tink i like keeping quiet? no! it's juz tt i m afraid of saying the wrong things, at the wrong times, which i ALWAYS do..screwing up watever tt was given to me. this just suck..
as we go higher up ( in terms of education), one wld feel more lost...(in terms of the space tt we spend our time on. frm kindergarden to p sch to sec sch, to jc, to uni, to the work place...the space just gets bigger...i m feeling v lost alreadi..
somehow, i got an premonition tt i wld not n will nv be successful in life..(hopefully not) but judging frm wat i have achieved in this 18 yrs of life.. i wld say..nth..it's a horizontal line across the horizontal axis tt represents time, vertical axis representing success level. this just suck.
well...to u readers out there....if all the above sound sucidal to you.. fret not... feeling much better after typing all tt garbage out in words. back to MECH 8 tutorial. this just SUCK. where did ani 1 find such a high power vacuum machine tt can suck so many things forever? =S
